So apparently I have options re: my crazy job situation. This is a welcome turn of events. Now, what are those options and what should I do? That, my friend, is much more complicated.

1. Stick it out at my current job until Mick is less of a jerk or until hell freezes over. This seems unlikely to happen. Hell freezing over is the more likely of the two, actually. Also, I don’t think I am going to have this option really, as I am pretty darn sure I am going to be fired on July 2. I feel like I’m sitting on a ticking bomb here. So let’s go to option two.

2. Quit whenever I darn well please and temp. I spoke with naomi’s temp agency person today and it sounds like they have plenty of short term assignments they could give me, as well as some longer-term ones. That would cover my butt for awhile, but I wouldn’t be making as much money as I am now and things would be tight. Option two bridges into options three and four, actually…

3. Old job, which I quit to come here. I talked to my boss last week & she was very sympathetic and basically said she would love to have me come back. However, there isn’t space for me there until September, when one of their employees moves to Portland. Since, like I said earlier, I am likely about to be fired, if I plan to take this job I would have to temp or something for a couple of months until that started. Not great, but not bad.

a. Pros: I know the people there and they are (mostly) fabulous. I know the job already and it is pretty easy.

b. Cons: Waiting & being broke all summer because of temping. Worries that they aren’t pleased I quit in the first place and people there will be petty, even though the boss says it’s all good. I know the job already and it is pretty boring (though easy).

4. New job with old old old boss. I had lunch with her 10 days ago, and spoke with the other manager we met with this morning. It sounds like they are very interested in me, but just haven’t gotten the details straightened out with their other branch office, which I would also work in a day or two a week. Which incidentally is 50 miles away in Lincoln, blegh. So here is the dl on this position:

a. Pros: It would be a new position for me, working in the title department instead of doing closings. It’s not really a desk-confined job, which appeals to me. I’d be at the courthouse doing research a lot. I could wear jeans as long as I wasn’t meeting with clients. I might be able to pierce my nose again (how sad is this, that nose piercing is a job consideration?). One of my old coworkers is at the company now and she loves it there. Learning new things is good and will make me Highly Marketable if I need to change jobs again (nooooooooooooooooo!!!! Don’t make me!!!! Not again!!!!!!!!!)

b. Cons: There is always the fear of the Great Unknown. What if it is no better than here (HIGHLY doubtful, but still possible)? What if I start doing title searches and discover I hate it? What if the office here closes and I have to commute to Lincoln every morning? What if what if what if?

Arg. I really thought that when I took this job it was going to be a “career” type move for me – that I wasn’t going to be changing jobs for a long long time. Apparently this is not the case, and I feel stupid for making this decision and putting myself through this in the first place.

In my defense, I didn’t know. Maybe I should have – when someone in HR tells you that a person is “a little difficult” to work with, apparently that translates to “an unreasonable asshole who is going to make you miserable”. When someone in HR tells you that someone has had 4 assistants in the last year, it should raise a red flag. And honestly it did. And I thought that I would rise above it and be fabulous and everything would be peachy. Whether Mick believes it or not, I have really tried to make this work and get these things done. Really.

I also feel terrible for putting curt through this – hello, how pissed would you be if you had just bought a house with someone and they were about to quit their job? To take what will potentially be their third job since November? Another reason to feel stupid, for dragging him through this. I must say that to his credit he is being amazingly supportive about the whole thing and has not said one darn thing about me being irresponsible and/or stupid. Which I am. Sort of.

What am I being? I’m not even sure anymore.

Also, why is dland sucking lately? I don’t want to change services again. Bah. Maybe I will see if the boyfriend has some space on his site he can lend me. Hmmm.